6 WEEKS.

Feeling: Today, I am 6 weeks and 1 day pregnant.  For someone so used to being no weeks and no days pregnant, this feels like a major accomplishment already.  Positive beta's - Check. Sack seen on 5 week U/S - Check.  But, that is where my confidence ends.   I am experiencing so few symptoms that I'm through the roof nervous.  Tomorrow I will go in for my 6 week ultrasound and while I couldn't be more thrilled to do so, I'm scared.  Everywhere you look there is someone's sad story of miscarrying.  And they are ALL terrifying in their own right.  I can't help but know that it could happen to us because it could happen to anyone.  I hate it.

Symptoms: Thus far, my main symptoms would have to be: MOODINESS and FATIGUE.  I am a tired, cranky girl.  Every time I tell myself to "cheer up, girlfriend...this is what you've been waiting for!" I feel an overwhelming desire to take a nap and wake up when it's time for my next doctor appointment.  I don't want to wish this first trimester away, but I am definitely, kinda sorta hoping it goes quickly.

Also, what's up with no nausea?  I just read online today that nausea is a good sign and it means that your body is doing what it is supposed to in order to maintain the pregnancy.  Hmm.  

One thing I keep reminding myself is that my Mom does not recall having any pregnancy symptoms with my sister or myself (she also didn't even know she was pregnant for 2 months back then). And my sister also had almost no symptoms while pregnant with my little nephew.  She threw up once and generally just felt exhausted, but that was it.  Hearing that stuff helps.

EDITED TO ADD - Holy HEARTBURN!!! I have some serious molten lava in my throat I type this. Thought I should update for accuracy.

Weight: I'm bloated in my midsection a bit but have been eating more, so it may just be that.  I haven't gained additional pounds yet but will keep updating every week to keep track.

What I Miss: Regular coffee! 

Looking Forward To: Despite what I'm writing, I'm feeling hopeful and happy and I just need to keep telling myself: I AM PREGNANT. I am looking forward to our 6 week ultrasound and I hope that we can see the heartbeat!

xoxo
L